I am a Super Woman, with Divine Power.
Out of my large group of friends I can say I am probably the one who jokes the most and the one who people come running to for advice.
But on days when I am down and I no longer have the strength to provide what I feel people look for from me the most (happiness, laughter, and a beautiful smile), a feeling of shame runs through my body. During those times, I want to run and hide because without those things I feel like I am nothing. I feel that I have nothing good to give to anyone.
I struggle being completely open about my depression because I never want to look like the “needy friend” or a mood killer. But I’ve dealt with some serious shit: abuse from a past relationship, “daddy issues”, and my mother fighting stage 4 colon cancer twice. I need someone to talk to, too.
While in the process of trying to overcome my depression I found a quote that reads,
“Shame keeps us imprisoned, robs us of all confidence, causes us to feel powerless, and convinces us that we will never be free.”
I realize that the more I tell myself I am not worthy, the more I let depression control my future and imprison me. I found myself turning my back on God because I thought I had all the answers. I believed that setting myself free of depression was an impossible task and that for the rest of my life this demon would haunt me.
BUT NAHHHH, FUCK THAT.
Romans 8:11 says, “And if the Spirit of him who raised Jesus from the dead is living in you, he who raised Christ from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies because of his Spirit who lives in you.”
I believe that as a black woman, I was born with super powers to handle whatever life throws at me. But I also know that if God is within me, I can overcome anything. With Him, I AM a super woman with divine power.